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Sorry my posts have been all about music but I'm missing Tomas so much and Can't read anymore!!! I love finding new bands, and then I go through and listen to almost every damn song. The mountain goats what the hell kind of name is that!?! But these songs just hit me hard, the lyrics, his voice! But I'm going to explain how I feel these songs touch me!!!

Here we go!

Game shows that touch our lives
The Mountain Goats...

"Dug up a fifth of Hood River gin
That stuff tastes like medicine
But I'll take it
It'll do

On the couch in the living room all day long
Music on the television playing our song
And I'm in the mood
The mood for you

Turn the volume up real high
All of that money look at it fly
And you smoking like a chimney
Shadows crawled across the living room's length
I held onto you with a desperate strength
With everything with everything in me
And I handed you a drink of the lovely little thing
On which our survival depends
People say friends don't destroy one another
What do they know about friends?

Thunderclouds forming cream white moon
Everything's going to be okay soon
Maybe tomorrow
Maybe the next day

Carried you up the stairs that night
All of this could be yours if the price is right
I heard cars headed down to oblivion
Up on the expressway
Your drunken kisses as light as the air
Maybe everything that falls down eventually rises
Our house sinking into disrepair
Ah but look at this showroom filled with fabulous prizes"

I love this song because it reminds me of when we had Halle, and we were both so exhausted from lack of sleep, And for that 1st week we woke up and watched tv almost all day! Just cuddling on the couch and we couldn't even see the floor it was that messy!
"I held onto you with a desperate strength
With everything with everything in me"

I love this line!! Most of us are holding on with everything in us!

"Everything's going to be okay soon
Maybe tomorrow
Maybe the next day"

This line is the attitude I try and have with being gone! Tomas is so strong, HE WILL MAKE IT HOME! Back to my arms!!!!

"Our house sinking into disrepair
Ah but look at this showroom filled with fabulous prizes"

I think this is super profound! You may have a big beautiful home, with nice appliances, soft carpets and amazing furniture! But with alot of people I think its Bull shit!
We fill our homes with fabulous prizes, but if your not happy those prizes mean nothing!!!

NO CHILDREN!
The Mountain Goats
I hope that our few remaining friends
Give up on trying to save us
I hope we come up with a failsafe plot
To piss of the dumb few that forgave us
I hope the fences we mended
Fall down beneath their own weight
And I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late
And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
Someday burns down
And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
And I never come back to this town again
In my life
I hope I lie
And tell everyone you were a good wife THIS IS WHERE THE TEARS STARTED! LOL BECAUSE I KNOW TOMAS WILL ALWAYS TELL PEOPLE THAT I WAS A GOOD WIFE, AND MOTHER! EVEN IF IT IS A LIE! UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
And I hope you die
I hope we both die

I hope I cut myself shaving tommorow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest befor the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong
I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst is'nt over
I hope you blink before I do
And I hope I never get sober
And I hope when you think of me years down the line
You can't find one good thing to say
And I hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way
I am drowning
There is no sign of land
Your are coming down with me I HOPE ITS UP! BUT NO MATTER WHAT IT'LL BE HAND IN HAND
Hand in unloveable hand
And I hope you die
I hope we both die


Okay that song is pretty dark, Bottom line Marriage is tough! You know those days when all your doing is fighting and trying to up the other! And you contemplate are you happy? is this the life you chose? Do you want out? Probably one of the hardest times in our married lives was when we had just had reese and we were so so broke! Tomas would leave before 8 and sometimes get home by 8 or 9, I was lonely and depressed, tomas didn't like were he was at in his life, trying to decide how to juggle school work, his family! We were hiding certain things in our lives to people! IT felt like the world was crumbling around us and we were just helpless! This song reminds me of the self pity I was allowing myself to feel! I literally wanted to be carried far far away! I really love the ending of this song, only because I interpret that no matter what, that whether me and Tomas are going down together, or Up together!! I'll never let him go! And he won't let me go! Sometimes remembering the bad makes the now that much more sweeter! And thats how this song hit me! I wouldn't trade places with the us back then for the us now, even with tomas a million miles away right now!




SEVENTY TIMES SEVEN!
Brand New

Back in school they never taught us
What we needed to know
Like how to deal with despair
Or someone breakin your heart
For twelve years I've held it all together
But a night like this is just beggin to pull me apart LOVE LOVE THIS LINE!!
I played it quiet left you deep in conversation
I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen
I remember I kept thinking
That I know you never would
And now I know I want to kill you
Like only a best friend could

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to...

As if it happening wasn't enough
I got to go and write a song
Just to remind myself how bad it sucked
Ignore the sun, covers over my head
Wrote a message on my pillow that says
"Jesse, stay asleep in bed"
Don't apologize (I hope you choke and die!)
Search your cell for something which to hang yourself MY CELL PRETTY MUCH HUNG ME
They say you need to pray
If you want to go to heaven
But they don't tell you what to say
When your whole life is going to Hell!

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to...
Everyone's caught on to
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everything you do
Everyone's caught on to...
(and I can't let you let me down again)

So is that what you call a getaway?
Well tell me what you got away with
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids THIS PERSON WOULDN'T HAVE OWNED UP TO ANYTHING..
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
Then again when your head goes through the windshield

Is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
So let's end this call and end this conversation
And is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
When you say "best friends" means friends forever

Is that what you call a getaway?
Well tell me what you got away with
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
Then again when your head goes through the windshield

(I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to...
(I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to...

I've loved this song heard it several million times ;) but a while back I was driving and crying, Reese had just finished her tae kwon do class and we were driving home, but that song came on the radio so instead I just kept on driving, I grabbed my cd case and found that song and put it on repeat! At first I just focused the song on a certain person and was like yes, exactly! Damn this song got it right!!! At this point I hadn't really taken full responsibility for my actions and was just pissed off at everything!!! Alot of Whys, why me, Why didn't I do things different, why am I all alone dealing with this! And just Blaming this person! But that drive changed alot of things. I found myself driving to the one I had hurts work, The girls were asleep and I sat there for over an hour, Crying and trying to think of the best possible most sincere apology that I could muster! I said it allowed over and over, but I couldn't get out of the car! I watched the person I had hurt just get in there car and drive away! I still regret not getting out of my car! on the way home the song I felt was about me, that I had no spine, no guts, and people were probably hoping I'd go through a windsheild. Because the next day all hell broke loose! Phone calls and Emails and Texting, I felt like an animal shoved in a corner! And my reaction was to fight! And in the end lost everyone! But whenever I hear this song I can't help but think this is what he deserves!!! I'm proud of myself for speaking up!! But I kinda hate myself for speaking up!!! I may only be able to tpye it or think it. Right now! But I honestly am so broken and sorry for the part I Played! If I get up to heaven and god lets me look down and change some things, This would be right up front!


Anyways Sorry these are all kinda downer songs! Happy ones just don't hit that spot as hard! But they all three brought up feelings that I needed to deal with, and my blog is where it falls!

LYRIC OVERLOAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HEAVENLY DAY

Oh heavenly day, all the clouds blew away
Got no trouble today with anyone
The smile on your face I live only to see
It's enough for me, baby, it's enough for me
Oh, heavenly day, heavenly day, heavenly day

Tomorrow may rain with sorrow
Here's a little time we can borrow
Forget all our troubles in these moments so few
All we've got right now, the only thing that
All we really have to do
Is have ourselves a heavenly day
Lay here and watch the trees sway
Oh, can't see no other way, no way, no way
Heavenly day, heavenly day, heavenly day

No one at my shoulder bringing me fears
Got no clouds up above me bringing me tears
Got nothing to tell you, I've got nothing much to say
Only I'm glad to be here with you
On this heavenly, heavenly, heavenly, heavenly
Heavenly day, all the trouble's gone away
Oh, for a while anyway, for a while anyway
Heavenly day, heavenly day, heavenly day

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ah ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh, ooh ooh ooh ooh

You gotta leave me now
You gotta go along
You gotta chase a dream
One that's all your own
Before it slips away

When you're flying high
Take my heart along
I'll be the harmony
To every lonely song
But you'll learn to play

When you're soaring through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down

I keep looking up
Waiting your return
My greatest fear will be
That you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire

I'll be the other hand
That always holds a line
Connecting in between
Your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire

And I'll be on the other end
To hear you when you call
Angel you were born to fly
And if you get too high
I'll catch you when you fall
Catch you when you fall

The memories, the sunshine
Every new day brings
I know the sky is calling
Angel let me help you with your wings

When you're soaring through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down

Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down

You me and the Bourgeisie

Here I am with all the pleasures of the first world
Laid out before me who am I to breakdown?

Everyday I wake up,
to fall apart
I choose love
I choose light
And I try, it's too easy just
Oh my baby don't be so distressed
Were done with politesse
It's time to be so brutally honest about
The way we know we long for something fine
When we pine for higher ceilings
And bourgeois happy feelings

And here we are in the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Everyday we wake up
We choose love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Plastic bottles
Imported water
Cars we drive wherever we want to
Clothes we buy it's sweatshop labor
Drugs from corporate enablers
We're not living the good life
'Cause we're fighting the good fight
You and me just trying to get it right

In the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Everyday we wake up
We choose Love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Love can free us from all excess
From our deepest debts
Cause when our hearts are full we need much less

Yea I know we long for something fine
When we pine for higher ceilings
And bourgeois happy feelings

But here we are in the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Here we are in the center of the first world
It's laid out before us, who are we to break down?

Everyday we wake up
We choose love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

Everyday we wake up
We choose love
We choose light
And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

PART ONE
The bottom the earth i have to fall
But you really caught me
You really caught me, dear
At the bottom where I'd fallen.

And slowly dear ask that you dance with me
Here with the shades down
Lights off

When i didn't know you
And everything i do
Done badly

Now I'll love you always
Even when i say
You distract me.

And sit out tonight in some strange place
If we have no friends here
Well i had a few to begin with

To wake next to you in the morning
And good morning to you.
How do you do?
Hey, good morning to you!
More covers for you.
Sleep soundly dear cause i have to go.

And I'll love you always.
When we leave this place
And drive back to Carolina
And down to Savannah and
Stay

GUESS THATS WHY THEY CALL ME THE BLUES!

Don't wish it away
Don't look at it like it's forever
Between you and me I can honestly say
That things will only get better

And while I'm away
Dust out the demons inside
And it won't be long before you and me run
To the place in our hearts where we hide

And I guess that's why they call it the blues
Time on my hands should be time spent with you
Laughing like children, living like lovers
Rolling like thunder under the covers
And I guess that's why they call it the blues

Just stare into space
Picture my face in your hands
Live for each second without hesitation
And never forget I'm your man, Mary Mary


Wait on me girl
Cry in the night if it helps
But more than ever I simply love you
More than I love life itself


And I guess that's why they call it the blues
Time on my hands should be time spent with you
Laughing like children, living like lovers
Rolling like thunder under the covers
And I guess that's why they call it the blues

And I guess that's why they call it the blues
Time on my hands (time on my hands) should be time spent with you
Laughing like children (laughing like children), living like lovers
Rolling like thunder under the covers
And I guess that's why they call it the blues

And I guess that's why they call it the blues

And I guess that's why they call it the blues

HOWS IT GOING TO BE
I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing
I wonder what are we fighting for
When I say out loud
I want to get out of this
I wonder is there anything
I'm going to miss
I wonder how it's going to be
When you don't know me
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it going to be
When there's no one there to talk to
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be
How's it going to be
Where we used to laugh
There's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore
Like the hammock by the
Doorway we spent time in swings empty
Don't see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me
I wonder how's it going to be
When it goes down
How's it going to be
When you're not around
How's it going to be
When you found out there was nothing
Between you and me
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be
And how's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore
And how's it going to be
Want to get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
I want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion oblivion
How's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore
How's it going to be
How's it going to be
How's it going to be


"Even If"

Never thought I would, find the words that could
Stand up through any weather
Something I could say, you could hear today
But stay with you forever
Just when I was losing my faith, and I was losing my way
It came to me as clear as day

[Chorus:]
Even if I wake up and find I'm alone
Cause the whole world's turned to stone
And my God says it's time I take you home
I'll be happy going knowing that I loved you

Innocent and mild, must be heaven's child
Sent to make me believe (Make me believe)
On my darkest night, all you have to do is smile
And you breathe new life into me
Just when I was losing my faith, and losing my way
You came to me as clear as day

[Chorus]
There'll be a time
When I'm gonna have to leave this sweet place behind
But baby before I go, I gotta make sure you know
'Bout the joy that you bring to my life

[Chorus 2x]

I'll be happy going knowing that I loved you [3x]

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.”

Santa baby came early

These are the only pics I got up in Logan. My camera died of course!!! The room was super fun, they had a pool table and the tub was the size of a freaking Hottub!!! lol We went to Pita pit of course! I forgot how amazingly good those are! And I forgot how freaking cold logan is! Geez, anyways got to hook up with Amber and Dan and little Zina, sorry we missed ya dennis!




We Celebrated Christmas early for the girls yesterday! And they loved the Kitchen, Reese is so creative! She has made me so many dishes already!


Also Intrduuuuuucing our newest editions Kevyn and Winston!
Kevyn
Winston aka winny
I got the girls the pinkalicious books and some princess dresses!
Ya this thing took like 3 hours to put together! And there is the little princess tent!













We had a good morning!!! Merry Christmas everyone!!!

Wow, So last night we went out to Dover!!!!!!!!!
My dad took me and Tomas out for a night of buffets, Texas hold em, black jack, big black tub 65 year old cocktail waitress! And all that Wendover ghetto Fabulous has to offer... However we were up till like 4 and woke up @ 9! I am so tired right now, but Tomas let me take a nap and he made me and the girls an amazing dinner... I just finished the girls bath and he is passed out now! I just love having him here and safe all tucked in a comfortable bed!! Anyways thanks for the Great Christmas Present Mom and Dad! We love you and will see you tomorrow, me and Tomas are heading up North to Logan to party harty some more at the Anniversary Inn, do some snowboarding and get couples massages!! Logan is where we dated pretty seriously and where he proposed!



Oh ya that's right wall full of mirrors!!!!!!!

Jason and Josh were out there for the hold em tournament.

Time is a fickle Son of a Bitch!!!
Already our time together is coming to and end! Blah I want to keep waking up to my cute husband and girls climbing into bed with us and cuddling... It took FOREVER for him to get here and the days are just blowing by! I tell ya BLOWING!!
Reese and Halle love love having tomas here we've been having such a fun time together! Right now tomas is making me lunch, he bought me the Seasons of Friends and I've been watching those and cracking up!!! Oh we love our man!

Then I did the simplest thing in the world. I leaned down... and kissed him. And the world cracked open. ~Agnes de Mille

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I CANNOT, CANNOT WAKE UP TO ANOTHER MORNING WITHOUT TOMAS!
He has been delayed for 2 days!
GD WADING POOL!!!

Tomas, Turkey, Taylor!!!!!!!!!!

Tomas comes home TOMORROW!!!
I got the house all cleaned, his jeep bought and parked out front! Its the biggest hunk of metal ever, but Tomas will make it look really good! We are so excited to just relax together and enjoy each others company! Can't wait!

Thanksgiving was a good day! My parents went and chilled with Karlie in St George, soaked up some sun! Me and the girls went to the Rus and Suzanne's house and had turkey with there friends and family! I love love there home!










Then we went to the Chinos for turkey take 2!





I know how sad this is, but I have always been a sucker for bodies like this!!! Freak Kid, he is plastered on every magazine right now, GQ, Mens Health, Teen Vogue, he is everywhere!!!! I think he is beautiful! lol! I love his white teeth and ripped body, veins in his arms... yowza! lol


He said he can't chose between blondes or brunettes, Taylor I got ya covered! lol

Reese Charly Chino,
Okay she is just so darn cute!!!!
She literally is my sun.
My daughters bring me such overwhelming joy.
Tomas comes home in 5 days, and the days could not be going any slower. I'm trying to stay busy. But its going so so slow! We are getting so excited! When we get the chance to talk we quote our favorite movies and talk about our favorite restaurants. I try and send him quotes and things I found this darling quote on amys blog( who by the way has been such a solid rock for me lately)
"You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting."
-Tinkerbell
It hasn't been easy for us this past week, when I feel pushed against a wall, I fight back pretty intensely. I lie, cheat, steal whatever I have to do to get out. But Tomas just Blah can't even explain it, just unconditional love! And the crazy part is he makes me feel that I deserve it! To be loved unconditionally! When the weight of life pushes me down to where I am crawling with my fingernails just to make it,he swoops in and picks me up dusts me off and pushes me forward! I just hold on and all of a sudden, Jayci comes back! I wrap up my regrets in some cloth and put them away, I'll always have them with me, but I'm not carrying them around anymore. Tomas makes me feel whole. Don't know how many of you have been without there husband, otherhalf, whatever for a long period of time but its a hard hard thing to survive, some don't! The constant worry that this could be our last chance to talk, not talking for long periods of time, not knowing if there okay! Ugh!!!!!!!!!! ITS AWFUL! But somehow when we get to talk again, I feel whole and alive! There is no one like you and me tomas! My darling, 5 more days....

my thoughts go out to you,my immortal beloved.I can live only wholly with you or not at all.
Be calm my life,my all.
Only by calm consideration of our existence...can we achieve our purpose to live together.
Oh,continue to love me.
Never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.

POSSIBILITY!!

So saw New Moon, at 3AM. lol, Me and tay went to Denny's got some pancakes and then
went in our pj's... ha But wow this song hit me hard! Me and Tomas went through some tough stuff, of my doing of course. Its really hard to have a relationship with phone cards and the delay... But I have a husband who loves me faults and all. He has always and will always be the only constant in my life!!!



There’s a possibility
There’s a possibility
All that I had was all I gon’ get

..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..

There’s a possibility
There’s a possibility
All I gon' get is gone with your step

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You’re the only who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There’s a possibility
I wouldn’t know

..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..
..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..

Know that when you leave
Know that when you leave
By blood and by mean
You walk like a thief
By blood and by mean
I fall when you leave

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You’re the only who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There’s a possibility
I wouldn’t know

Tell me when my sigh is over
You’re the reason why I’m close
Tell me if you hear me falling
Theres a possibility
It wouldn’t show

..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..
..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..
..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..

By blood and by mean
I fall when you leave
By blood and by mean
I follow your lead

..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..
..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..
..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..
..MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM..

Dear Reese,
Sweet Daughter of mine, I've loved you before you were even here!
Your ability to love and accept baffles me everyday...
Your beautiful curls, and adorable smile helps me to get up every morning and face the world!
Your Daddy loves and misses you so much.
And Halle jay looks up to you so much.
Thanks for the never ending hugs.
Thanks for being just you! I love you Reese Charly!

So when I hear a song that gives me chills I have to post about it!!!

I hope that I got all the lyrics right,
Lady Gaga Rendition of
IMAGINE

Imagine there's no heaven
its easy if you try
no hell below us
And only Mathew in the sky

Imagine all the people
living for today
imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
and no religion to

Imagine all the people
living life in peace
You may say i'm a dreamer
but i'm not the only one

I hope some day you will join us
And the world will live as one

People of the nation
are you listening
it isn't equal if its sometimes
oh what a real democracy

Imagine all the people
could love equally
imagine no possesions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
just a brother hood of land

Imagine all the people
sharing in the world
with nothing to hate and nothing to think,
just people to love them

Friends to have grace
you may say i'm a dreamer
but i'm not the only one
I hope someday you will join us
and the world will live as one!!!

I really don't think I am a gay activist but nor am I against it!
I think I am against not free to be you and me!
I don't think anyone should be persecuted for what they believe! I don't think people should have to die for what they believe either! Free to be you and Me!!!
Anyways isn't lady gaga amazing though! She really has a great voice!

Far away!

Far Away :
I will live my life as a lobsterman's wife on an island in the blue bay.
He will take care of me, he will smell like the sea,
And close to my heart he'll always stay.

I will bear three girls all with strawberry curls, little Ella and
Nelly and Faye.
While I'm combing their hair, I will catch his warm stare
On our island in the blue bay.

Far away far away, I want to go far away.
To a new life on a new shore line.
Where the water is blue and the people are new.
To another island, in another life.

There's a boy next to me and he never will be anything but a boy at the bar.
And I think he's the tops, he's where everything stops.
How I love to love him from afar.

When he walks right pass me then I finally see on this bar stool I can't stay.
So I'm taking my frown to a far distant town
On an island in the blue bay.

Far away far away, I want to go far away.
To a new life on a new shore line.
Where the water is blue and the people are new.
To another island, in another life.

I want to go far away.
Away away, I want to go far away, away, away
I want to go far away, far away.

Where the water is blue and the people are new.
To another life, to another life.
To another shore line
In another life.

SLEEPING????

Happy Birthday, some more pics from my party earlier
Me and Hal
Amy, photo shopped this for me, I love my hair


Halle was getting ready with us!
Girls love my shoes!
Pitty mum, pitty mum

Couldn't decide which to wear, went with the boot

My new hat that Steph gave me!

I love this song in a Good way, MISS YOU TOMAS

Even if you are a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me

And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear it inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time,

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever try sleeping with a broken heart?
Well you could try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, own me, nobody ever shut it down like you

You wore the crown, you made my body feel heaven bound
Why don't you hold me, need me
I thought you told me, you'd never leave me

Looking in the sky I could see your face
And I knew right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I'll always be in love with you
Right till the end

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could've told you right from the start it's 'bout to fall apart
So rather than hold on to a broken dream or just hold on to love
And I could find a way to make it, don't hold on too tight
I'll make it without you tonight

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you