Wednesday, July 29, 2009


Summer in the city means cleavage cleavage cleavage
And I start to miss you, baby, sometimes
I've been staying up and drinking in a late night establishment
Telling strangers personal things

Summer in the city, I'm so lonely lonely lonely
So I went to a protest just to rub up against strangers
And I did feel like coming but I also felt like crying
It doesn't seem so worth it right now

And the castrated ones stand in the corner smoking
They want to feel the bulges in their pants start to rise
At the site of a beautiful woman they feel nothing but
Anger, her skin makes them sick in the night nauseaous, nauseaous, nauseaous

Summer in the city, I'm so lonely lonely lonely
I've been hallucinating you, babe, at the backs of other women
And I tap on their shoulder and they turn around smiling
But there's no recognition in their eyes

Oh summer in the city means cleavage cleavage cleavage
And don't get me wrong, dear, in general I'm doing quite fine
It's just when it's summer in the city, and you're so long gone from the city
I start to miss you, baby, sometimes

When it's summer in the city
And you're so long gone from the city
I start to miss you, baby, sometimes
I start to miss you, baby, sometimes
I start to miss you, baby, sometimes

Tuesday, July 28, 2009


So apparently there are only a few select couples that talk Dirty in Bed, I've discovered!!!
Well see ya later!! LOL!

Monday, July 27, 2009


Okay wow I cannot wait, I literally get the chills lol lol! I can hear tomas gagging.. Ha
I love Jacobs body! Edwards definitely got better though!!! HOLLA!!! H TO THE IZO!!!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

I just really needed to make a post about my Friend, may as well be family!!!
But I am a lucky person for the people that are in my life! I know everyone says this! But sorry I'm special! I have some of the most intimate, kind, understanding friends!!! And not only my friends but there amazing husbands!! Who make my friends the wonderful people they are today. I visited with some today and the powerful things that they say I Know come from a place of a very powerful knowledge and powerful way too communicate without judgment, put from a love of wanting people to understand and give support no matter what is going on! The peace that they have brought me today is I know they care for me and my family! Thank you for your words!!
And I know people don't like to put themselves out there but you'd be surprised at how many people may be going through things and get the drive to keep going because of the things you share!!! I know most of your blogs are there for beautiful pictures and the creativity that is out there. BUt I challenge you to let some stuff out BAM right out there in the open! It doesn't have to be your most spiritual most horrible most confusing things you have experienced or seen. Some things don't need to be shared, but if you let out a few things, you'd be shocked at how much support is out there, or how much support you just gave someone by sharing your life! Good or bad!!
So let it out

ALL OF YOU! IF YOU'D BUT JUST SHARE, YOU'LL FIND SO MANY AMAZING NEW WAYS TO TAKE ON YOUR WORLD, BY LETTING PEOPLE IN YOUR WORLD!!!! Either share here in my comments or write it down somewhere, send someone an email or letter that has been on your mind, reach out! Everyone of you has something amaizing and great to offer the world! Just let us know that we are not alone!!! I sincerly challenge you all! very much love to my friends who share and help me with my world!!!

Saturday, July 18, 2009

I do believe I will get to a place in my life that I won't feel the need to explain the things I do too anyone... But however not there yet!!

Miss anonymous... Don't be so "WHITE TRASH" and share your opinion without having the balls to say who you are! Enjoy your pleasant life perfect marriage and children, beautiful car and two car garage!!

Those of you who know me, know I am obsessed with Eminem! I think he says what he means and its real stuff! He doesn't hide behind a picture perfect life!! I just got his new cd and was listening to it! And sorry white trash or not it fit with what I was feeling at the time, sorry miss anonymous that it wasn't Bubbly, or some happy good lucky song!!!

I had just finished taking someone very close to me, to see his probabtion officer for drugs, and his mom could give a shit!
Also another close friends mom wants nothing to do with her for the choices she is making and who she is chosing to be with!!
My own mother thinks her children are a pieces of shit!

You think I could go off yelling at these mothers, heck no, does anyone think you should talk like that song in front of there children UMM NO!!!

Thats what MY BLOG is for, for me to let things go, to vent and say exactly how I feel!!
This blog is very theraputic for me!!
I really am sorry if I embarress family or make my friends uncomfortable!
But don't worry in a few days it will be gone, and my beautiful girls and husband will be on the next post!

But for real anynomous get a life, mine may not be full just the good times, which I think is great too, if thats all they want to share! But me I'm just not that way!!

And for the record I've only tried valium a few times! LOL!
To all my family and friends who chose to put up with the good and the bad, I Love Love Love you for that!!!

So heres to better days and better blogs but my bad ones will be on here as well!!!

Friday, July 17, 2009


So lately the only way I seem to be able to communicate is through song... I have a zillion photos I want to upload and tons to tell you all.. The good the bad and then the really bad and the really good! But can't quite put it all up yet!! So here are two songs which hit home deeply and again don't take them too literally, I am however absolutely cuckoo! And I do love my Mother!

Song 1
[don't fall in love with me yet
we only recently met
true i'm in love with you but
you might decide i'm a nut
give me a week or two to
go absolutely cuckoo
and when you see your error
then you can flee in terror
like everybody else does
i only tell you this 'cause
i'm easy to get rid of
but not if you fall in love
know now that i'm on the make
and if you make a mistake
my heart wil certainly break
i'll have to jump in a lake
and all my friends will blame you
there's no telling what they'll do
it's only fair to tell you
i'm absolutely cuckoo] x2
Song 2

My Mom lyrics

Yo yo, alright, i'm gonna lay the chorus first
Here we go now.

My mom loved valium and lots of drugs
And that's why I am like I am cause I'm like her
Because my mom loved valium and lots of drugs
That's why I on what I on cause I'm my mom.

My mom my mom I know youre probably tired of hearing about my mom Oh ho! Whoa ho!
But this is just a story of when I was just a shorty and how I became hooked on va-al-ya-hum
Valium was in everything food that I ate, The water that I drank fucking peas on my plate,
She sprinkled just enough of it to sea-son my steak, So everyday I have at least three stomach aches,
Now tell me what kind of mother would want to see her
Son grow up to be an under a undera-fuckin-chiever, My teacher didn't think I was going be nothing either,
What the fuck you sticking gum up under the fucking seat for?
Mrs. Mathers your son has been huffing ether, Either that or the mother fuckers been puffing reefer,
But all this huffing and puffing wasn't what it was either,
It was neither I was buzzing but it wasn't what she thought, Pee in a tea cup?
Bitch you aint my keeper, im sleeping, What the fuck you keep on fucking with me for?
Slut you need to leave me the fuck alone I aint playing,
Go find you a white crayon and color a fucking zebra.

My mom love Valium and lots of drugs, That why I am like I am cause I'm like her,
Because my mom love Valium and lots of drugs, That why I'm on what I'm on cause I'm my mom.

Wait a minute this aint dinner this is paint thinner, You ate it yesterday I aint hear no complaints did I?
Now here's a plate full of pain killers now just wait till I crush the Valium and put it in your potatoes you little mother fucker ill make you sit there and make that retarded fucking face without even tasting it, you better lick the fucking plate you aint wasting it, Put your face in it before I throw you in the basement again,
And I aint giving in, your gonna just sit there in one fucking place spinning again till next thanksgiving and if you still aint finished it I use the same shit again then when I make spinach dip it will be placed into shit, you little shit want to sit there and play innocent, A rack fell and hit me at k mart and they witnessed it, child support, your father he aint slipped us shit and so what if he did that aint none of your dang business kid.

My mom there's noone else quite like my mom I know why should let bygones be bygones
But she's the reason why I am high but I'm high on cause.

My mom love Valium and lots of drugs, That why I am like I am cause I'm like her,
Because my mom love Valium and lots of drugs, That why I'm on what I'm on cause I'm my mom.

My mom loved valium now all I am Is a party animal, I am what I am
But I'm strong to be finished wit' me val-ium spinach But my bars only last about two minutes
But I don't wanna swallow it without you in it I can't even write a rhyme without you in it
My valium, my vaaa-eh-elll-liummmmm maaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnnn.

Man I never though that I could ever be A drug addict nah, fuck that I can't have it happen to me
But that's actually what has ended up happenin, a tragedy
I'm fuckin passin it up catchin me And it's probably where I got acquainted with the taste ain't it?
Pharmaceuticals of the bomb i'm beautiful Secure the fuckin dog with the medicine she done fed it
Feed it a fuckin aspirin and say that it has a headache
Here want a snack, you hungry you fuckin rat Look at that, it's a Zanex, take it and take a nap
Eat it, but I don't need it, well fuck it then brake it up
Take a little piece and beat it before you wake Nathan up all right Ma you win, I don't feel like arguin
I'll do it, pop and gobble it and start wobblin Stumble hobble tumble slip drip then I fall in bed
With a bottle of meds and a Heath Ledger bobblehead.

My mom love Valium and lots of drugs, That why I am like I am cause I'm like her,
Because my mom love Valium and lots of drugs,
That why I'm on what I'm on cause I'm my mom.
My mom i'm just like her My mom my mom my mom [x2]
My mom my mom my mom, my mom, my momma
Meh mommeh, eh likah momma. Ha ha, sorry mom, still love you though Dr. dre 2010, hey this shit is hella hard homie
Yo take us on outta here.

Monday, July 6, 2009


Sometimes certain songs come along that I swear were meant for me!!!

(Now keep in mind you can't take this song too literally) Seriously what girl drinks Whiskey lol!!!

I've hardly been outside my room in days,
'Cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it was then I realized the conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life,
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to, you wake completely lost.

But I will fight for you,
Be sure that I will fight,
Until we're the special two once again.

And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,
Our hands will not be taught to hold another's,
And we're the special two!
And we could only see each other, we'll bleed together,
These arms will not be taught to need other's,
And we're the special two.

I remember someone old once said to me,
That "lies will lock you up with truth the only key."
But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,
And couldn't see this place would soon become my hell.
So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?
Well I guess the answer is, don't do it in the first place.
I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,
But if by chance you change your mind, you know I will not let you down,
'Cause we were the special two, and we'll be again.

And we will only need each other, we'll breathe together,
Our hands will not be taught to hold another's,
when we're the special two.
And we can only see each other, we'll bleed together
These arms will not be taught to need another,
when we're the special two.

I step outside my mind's eyes for a minute.
And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,
Or something that could ease the pain.
But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,
Just remembering, just remembering how we were...

When we would only need each other, we'd bleed together,
our hands would not be taught to hold another's,
We were the special two.
And we could only see each other we'd bleed together,
These arms would not be taught to need another's,
'Cause we're the special two.