Eh...

Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs
I know I can't breathe
And hope someone will save me this time
And your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that god never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
And crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you love things just because
Like the sick and dying

And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in it's absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy

Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them



Hey Guys what a Lazy Sunday!!! I finished a whole book, ran around with the girls and swoop, they are both passed out on my bed right now, I bought them Pocahontas and we've watched it all day! I am so sick of it! Dexter season 4 started and I am making myself a salad and watching it, but since I pretty much had zero activity i'm not the least bit tired! I hate lonely nights, I feel i can get through the day but then my nights just drag sometimes, I bought this lavender sleep pillow mist for Bath and Body and ya its not helping! I suppose I could Tylenol PM it tonight but it makes me super groggy in the morning. Not that I have anything tomorrow morning! I love the crispness in the air! Just wish it was a little warmer!