UMMMM YA......

I pretty much feel like death today!!! lol! "Kill him"

My Dearest,

I've missed you very very much since that last night we were together
and will hold that night especially in my memories for years to come

I've been turning it over and over in my mind lately
I've read your letter through at least four times
and will probably read it more times before I'm through

I've been sitting here.. looking at your picture 
and getting more homesick every minute
I've wanted that picture more than anything else I know of except of course...
you yourself

I keep thinking of you darling
I keep wishing I could be home with you
I want to leave in the worst possible way
So I can come home to see you but..
Things don't look so good on that subject

And  this war has spoiled a lot of things for everyone I guess..
I've never been so lonesome in my life as I am right now
I'm completely lost without you darling

I never realized I could miss any one person so much
I just hope it won't be too much longer until I'm able to be with you again
And live a sane and normal life

The Job!!

You know when you have really good work days.. Well the last two nights at flemings have been so great! Awesome customers and fun coworkers and everything just runs real smooth! I enjoy my job alot and am glad that I can go a few days a week. If you haven't tried Flemings you for sure need to! ITs great food and wonderful service!!

( Sorry guys sometimes the only way that I can communicate is through music and its words) I am sitting here with my twinkie, lol ya twinkie anyone remember what this foam taste like so good with tears... Guys I miss him so much! Blah

I knew who he was when I took his name
But somehow knowing is just not the same late at night
He knows the danger but he does what he does
He calls it duty, but I call it love
So here I am
While hes gone to some foreign land

Chorus: (Both)
And I cry cuz i'm all alone
And the nights get so cold and long
And I try not to think he wont come home
But I'm sleepin' with the telephone

Verse 2: (Reba McEntire)
The yellow ribbon on my neighbors gate
Always reminds me that someones awake just like me
I hear the sirens and I watch the news
He laughs and leaves with his gun and his blue uniform
And I pray god keeps him safe from harm

Chorus: (Both)
And I cry cuz i'm all alone
And the nights get so cold and long
And I try not to think he wont come home
But I'm sleepin' with the telephone

Bridge: (Both)
I lose him in my darkest dreams
And my blood runs cold and my heart skips a beat
So I get up
I cant take anymore
Sometimes I hate how much I love him
But everyday I love him more

And I try not to think he wont come home
But I'm sleepin' with the telephone

(Reba McEntire)
Somethin' awakes me from where he should be
I reach for him
The telephone rings

In my daughter's eyes
I am a hero I am strong and wise
And I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I want to be
In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes
Everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light
And the world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me
Gives me strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh, It puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about
It's hanging on when your heart
Has had enough
It's giving more when you feel
Like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes
I can see the future
A reflection of who I am
And what will be
And though she'll grow
And someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see
How happy she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes

[Jay-Z]
Ahuh Ahuh (Yea Rihanna)
Ahuh Ahuh (Good girl gone bad)
Ahuh Ahuh (Take three... Action)
Ahuh Ahuh

No clouds in my storms
Let it rain, I hydroplane in the bank
Coming down with the Dow Jones
When the clouds come we gone, we Rocafella
She fly higher than weather
And G5's are better, You know me,
an anticipation, for precipitation. Stacked chips for the rainy day
Jay, Rain Man is back with little Ms. Sunshine
Rihanna where you at?

[Rihanna]
You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
May be in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

[Chorus]
When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

These fancy things, will never come in between
You're part of my entity, here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart
Because

[Chorus]
When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

You can run into my arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
Come into me
There's no distance in between our love
So go on and let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because

[Chorus]
When the sun shines, we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

It's raining
Ooh baby it's raining
Baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining
Oh baby it's raining

125 DEGREES!!

I feel like that Frog story with the boiling pot of hot water! ( funny thing... well not funny per say but I did this to my Friend Ashley's frog in the sink! Put to much hot water in and he got paralyzed) we were like umm why isn't he kicking anymore! I don't think her little brother has forgiven me yet! Anyways uh ya Tough week! Lots of BIG changes in peoples lives. Didn't work at all this week, and have gone through a whole loaf of bread in 3 days, due to peanut butter sandwiches, even swoop doesn't want to eat them anymore! I still have a swollen lip and haven't showered in 2 days. I can't even see the floors anymore! But this week is behind us! ITs over in the past!!! Cna't be changed, undone! Back to the frog! I've never been to the boling point, and usually its not me that sees that I am "UH BOILING JAYCI THATS WAY WAY TO HOT!" and they burn there hands fishing me out!!! Hold me, forgive me, make sure I am okay! But this time I felt the heat surround me and realized GET OUT!!! and I did I climbed out!!! This doesn't deserve any kind of congrats, its actually quite pathetic!! But nontheless (thats for you adi) nonTHELESS I climbed out! I'M READY FOR A CASE OF THE MONDAYS!!!! BRING ON THE WEEK! ;)

She was lost in so many different ways
Out in the darkness with no guide
I know the cost of a losing hand
Never thought the grace of God go high

I found heaven on earth
You were my last, my first
And then I hear this voice inside
Ave Maria

I've been alone when I'm surrounded by friends
How could the silence be so loud?
But I still go home knowing that I've got you
There's only us when the lights go down

You are my heaven on earth
You are my hunger, my thirst
I always hear this voice inside
Singing Ave Maria

Sometimes love can come and pass you by
While your busy making plans
Suddenly hit you and then you realize
It's out of your hands, baby you got to understand

You are my heaven on earth
You are my last, my first
And then I hear this voice inside
Ave Maria, Ave Maria, Ave Maria

Goodby Summer!!!

So my camera broke a bit ago and I had no idea you could email pictures to your computer from your phone, I thought I needed that lousy cable thing!! Well Nope so here are some pictures from the summer!!

Me and the Girls went out to eat at Flemings, The food is so good, I get 50% off so anyone that wants to go let me know!!! ps I have to come with! HA


Went to the good ole Box Elder County Fair! I'm starting to feel old by the way.



We go up to Snowbird every year! They had scotland highland races thing going on pretty fun, ya the dude was in a kilt, no underwear!! lol



Jessie got married, her wedding was so fun, I missed Tomas so much though he was the only brother not there!!! The girls looked so cute in there matching purple Dresses... Reese and Halle love there cousins




Me and Alisha and the girls out for lunch at Wingers... Freak Girl I miss ya! Go UNLV!



Vegas Baby!!!


Oh me and the girls sure miss this guy!!!




Reese and Lulu whenever they get together it is a Dress up extravaganza!!!! I LOVE YOU JEN!!!


Clubbin it at the Sandbar with Alisha and Steph... HOLLA


Miss Aims comes and saves my hair from time to time.. When One night I decide to go back blonde in 1 NIGHT!! Blame it on the AMBEIN!! LOL



Reese is just so darn cute!! She started a Tai Kwon Do class and she absolutely loves it... SHe got a new fun pink tv from grandma, and new boobs!! LOL






Me and Tomas had ourselves some airport sex... lol it was in the private handicap bathroom!! Love it!! Have I told you how much I am missing him!!

Tomas got himself a tattoo!! ITs in latin and it means "In order for Peace you must prepare for war" Ya just sent me a picture, oh hun by the way jut got a tattoo today!!! BUt I like it!


Me and the girls on a lazy afternoon!!!

Shitdamnhell!!!!! thats all