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Hi wow, Been busy sorry I am so behind..
Few updates.

I LOVE MY JOB AT FLEMINGS... IT is such a fun chill classy place! I can't wait till i get a chance to serve there, all the girls and Rob that I host with are super cute and fun. And my managers are super chill but expect you to do your job the best you can! I am lucky to be there, I love getting ready and visiting with people!

Tomas is leaving on the 4th this month and will be gone for training till june! And when he gets back I am having a killer BBQ! Everyone is invited, it'll kind of be a Bon Voyage slash Tomas 26th Bday slash Reese 3rd Bday!!!

Me and Tomas fell asleep cuddling last night and are just preparing to miss each other!
With Zoloft and a good Attitude I think we will survive lol!!!
No, this isn't us I just love this picture and how tight they are holding one another!


Easter was super fun, I had to work at night but we had a fun morning still picking up the Easter grass from there baskets!




Found this close up of my makeup that Amy did! She is so Freaking Talented!

My friend Kristina had to go to the ER she has had some problems with her Pancreas, and I have been visiting her up there with her new umm "boyfriend" ;) I just love her and wish a fast healing!

Anyways I have some SUPER BIG NEWS but as soon as I get all the emails out to go private I will tell ya all! ( no I am not Prego, ARE YA KIDDING ME FOR EVEN THINKING THAT)

We went to Red Robin and had some lunch, I love that place!

My brother Matt had his little son Daxton! He is the cutest thing, and we are so glad to have Whitney and little Dax part of the Family.

We went to Sunday Brunch at The Cheesecake Factory and this was my Sunrise Burrito! Yes mom I am sure your dying! That thing was HUGE! I couldn't even eat 1/4 of it and I was full, it was good, but no wonder we are the fattest country! WHO NEED ALL THAT FOOD REALLY?

Anyways all in all things are just rollin for us down here in SLC! Loving the nice weather, and wanna kill someone when the next day its freezing!!



Umm what else Damn the Jazz!!

Halle can say, Dad, Mom, Ball, Dog, and No! So cute

I am a size 8 Ladies... Holla still got twenty to go!

I miss Taylee Case, haven't talked with her in forever.


Love ya

BRITNEY BABY!!!!

Ya the Dress. Crazy! I know.... But I had a Blast.

HOLLA!

Hey guys...
So been busy with Family Friends and Parties.. I know tough life right!

Me and Tomas went to the Anniversary Inn this week and went out to eat at the Melting Pot. Keira was so sweet and watched our girls and me and Tomas had a blast!! But best of all we got too SLEEP IN!!!! We didn't wake up till ten and then we had breakfast and went back to bed till noon! It was so Freaking Great.


We hung out with Paige n Nate and Keri n Jared and had a Wild night in the Rain!!! It was pouring that night!!!


My Grandpa passed away last week and although it was pretty tough, it was nice to be surrounded in family and seeing all of my mothers childhood friends and neighbors! His funeral was very sweet and all the grandchildren sang... My Grandma is so strong and our prayers are always with her!
My mom And Grandma at the Graveside..
She was so strong throughout this whole ordeal, very good example for me
My grandma's favorite color is Lavender, and while we were walking to the gravesite, Reese saw this flower (she kinda graverobbed it) but it was so sweet, she picked it up and was like "I want to give this too Grammie"
Karlie and my cute Cousins..
Nixon, Cody and Jess
Scottie and Robbie and me with Nixon
I love you Grandpa!!!!

And Tomas had his big going away party at the Olive Garden, they got him lots of Swag and a cake and it was really nice too see the support he got from his co workers and employees, and his boss! It just showed me what a great worker and boss tomas is! They all love him!!

T + J =

" MARRIAGE ALWAYS HOLDS YOUR PARTNERS HAPPINESS HOSTAGE, AND THE PRICE OF RANSOM IS ALWAYS YOUR DEVELOPMENT!" david shnarch...

I saw this quote a week ago and I cannot get it out of my mind... I know at first reading it doesn't sound like a very uplifting quote. But how I interpret this way... the reason your happiness is held hostage is because you should be trying to make sure the other is happy no matter the cost!!! If you chose too pay the Ransom and chose to find happiness on your own you can't because you just gave up your development! And the only way too develop into a good person is putting people before yourself.

Being in love can sometimes seem like a curse, because no matter the pain you are dragged through, you wake up the next morning hoping for a better day, and the only comfort you can get is from the one who hurts you the most!!! Love is like an addiction that you need to survive!
You can never give up call it quits because you are in love!!! You've created a home together you've created life together you can't escape that!

When you yell at them too get out, all you can think of as soon as that door slams is "when are they coming back"! They are your only source of True Happiness!!!

And Marriage is so Hard! Oh sure it is amazing at the same time!!!
But Just when you think you've got it together REALITY HITS!!!
Bills, money, work, family, kids, friends, pets, neighbors, church,illness, death comes into play and you've got too deal with all that too!!!!!

TRUE LOVE IN JAYCI CHINO'S OPINON IS THIS!!!
Having a terrible fight, wanting too shut it all out, run away, coming back home, husband in the shower with Reese getting her ready for bed, and Your love needs his neck shaved, so you shave it make him look nice and neat, and he turns and says Come here I am sorry about today give me a kiss!!!! Close my eyes and somehow through that small wet peck in the shower everything seems too be OKAY!!!

AH LOVE!!!! DAMN LOVE!!!! LOVE LOVE!!!

BLAHHHH

So this evening I was cleaning up dinner and Tomas brought home Chicken Fingers from work... (which by the way are so good) and anyways, of course I eat fries and Chicken Fingers with Ketchup and I always Squirt to much out of the bottle and tons goes to waste and I tell myself "JAYCI STOP WASTING ALL THIS KETCHUP, THEN YOU DON'T HAVE ANY LEFT WHEN YOU REALLY WANT IT" and I started crying at the sink watching the ketchup go down the drain!!!!!!!
I am not handling this well at all! Try as I may! And lately I feel that with Tomas I am giving him things just so I can take them away from him, maybe hurt him somehow! I am not sure why this is happening... I've become incredibly selfish with making sure my needs are met and things go smoothly for me! I am losing it a tad! And The one I should be holding on too, is the one I am pushing away and I can't figure it out!

FREAK I LOVE TOMAS!!!! OKAY I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT!!! I AM IN LOVE WITH EVERY PART OF THAT BOY!

But here I am pushing THAT BOY to his breaking point! WHY! WHY! WHY!

I tell myself "BE HAPPY" I have lots of good things going look for the positive but I can't sometimes.

Its been a roller coaster lately so happy, connect with him in every way possible.
And then the next day its Hell for both of us.

Blah I can't seem to get it together sometimes.....

Meh!

HALF MY HEART IS GOING TO AFGHANISTAN!

Part of me has known this was going to happen to us one more time, but the longer the army delayed and delayed and all the high alerts, and then NOTHING. Kinda messed with my head... I really got in there that he wouldn't be going. But on Saturday they dropped the Bomb! He has got his orders and will be deploying, the date isn't final so it could change but only by a few weeks! 18 MONTH TOUR!!

Now I keep telling myself Jayce don't have a pity party for yourself, look for the good and get a support system! But its so hard, I know those long days are coming around 5:00 and then hearing the keys jingle on the door and then Tomas is home and that wave of, not sure if I can describe it but all you wives and mothers know exactly what I am talking about!! That is not going to be there for over a year and a half!!! So many people have done this and with more on there plate than me! But there not me, and I am scared too death to take care of the girls all by myself!! I don't like being alone!

Tomas is having a hard time leaving this time too, mostly because of Reese and Halle, when he starts talking about not being able too see them everyday tears come to the eyes and we have too change the subject! He gets so worried they will forget about him! I'm like Tomas they know exactly who you are! Luckily Technology has come a long ways. He can send them video from you tube every night telling them good night and we have the web cam and the girls will be able to communicate and see there dad!!

Now another thing... I KNOW I KNOW I SAID I WOULD NEVER DO THIS!!! And I haven't completly decided, but I am not sure if I want the whole world wide web knowing certain things, but this blog is my journal! So going PRIVATE is the logical thing too do! And believe me I hate it, but the last thing I need is people knowing that my husband is leaving and me and the girls will be alone! So really even if I don't know you send me your email!!! And my plans of what I am going to be doing and going!! BLAH THIS REALLY SUCKS!!! Love you all! Thanks already for the support I know I will be getting, and for your prayers and caring thoughts and comments!